You were my happiness.You were my happiness.You were the one to take the grey clouds away; you were the one who made my flaws not matter. More importantly, you were the one who kept me alive.Now you're gone. You said you cared about my heart but you never did, you killed it with lies and deceit. I loved you more than anything for it to be torn out of my mind.I now wake up and stare into emptiness, sometimes with tears cold, but still there; rolling down. Sometimes not, sometimes the tears stay but the pain just sinks into like a knife. A knife that isn't seen but only felt. I now look at myself and see the flaws to where I wasn't perfect, I see them and add them up in my head like a list, or a scale each adding up to equal: I'm not good enough anymore. Not just for you but anyone.