Why is it?Why is it that whenever someone says your name, I shiver.
Why is it when someone asks me about you I blush and melt?
Why is it that when you talk to me I shake?
Why is it that when I say I love you I get scared?
Why is it I feel empty when we don't talk?
Why is it I feel like such a burden?
Why is it I feel like you'll hate me forever?
Why can't I understand how I feel. Why can't I stop shaking, why can't I stop crying when I'm away from you for too long?
Why is it?
let me go.Let me go.
Let me be alone.
Allow me to have the voices silence me.
Allow me to be cradled by the earth's dirt.
Cover my eyes so I can't see.
Cover my body over, that way I cannot move.
Leave me alone till I'm gone.
Leave me be.
Don't say you missed me.
Don't say you cared.
I won't need your sorry mind.
I won't need the endless words.
You don't need to mourn.
You don't need to be there.
Let me be.
Let me go.
Wishing.I wish you were here holding me whilst I was alone, telling me "it's going to be okay." That I'm not alone and that you'll always be there bedsides me.
I wish you'd wipe away my tears and say, "you still look beautiful."
I wish you'd shut me up when I screamed in pain from the demons inside my head. You'd shut me up by pinning me down and kissing me, I wouldn't mind. I wouldn't mind because I'd have your soft, gentle and loving lips on mine. I'd just have to close my eyes and smell your beautiful scent as I kiss you back.
I wish you'd be here in my bed, sleeping with me. Not in a sexual way; but in an innocent way where I can hold you and play with your hair to show my love for you.
However, my life nor yours isn't a fairy tale. I won't have you to hold me, to kiss me or love me. I'll only have these wishes to keep me believing.